Back to Blogging
So it’s been a while since I’ve blogged.
To be honest, the depression and anxiety fully kicked my butt, and it was So. Much. Harder. to get my eating back on track than I anticipated, partly due to the anxiety and depression and partly due to the fact that I increased in my intake and my metabolism zoomed through the stratosphere and my weight crashed a bit. I was never in medical danger, but I ended up with a bit of a deeper hole to climb out of than I anticipated.
I thought about my blog a lot. At first, the apathy overwhelmed me. I wanted to want to blog, but I couldn’t quite work up the energy. Then I made it to wanting to blog, but not having the energy. And then I wanted to blog but didn’t have the time.
I also had a lot of Big, Important Things happening around then. I got engaged (for reference and anonymity, I will call him Mr. Bites), which was really exciting. Yes, I met him online. It took a while because my matches were generally like this:
I also was reporting on a story that was very emotionally draining, and although it was a great experience to write the story, I frequently ended the day wanting a vodka and Prozac on the rocks.
Then, just as the depression started to lift a bit, I got slammed with work in December. Let’s just say that I told Mr. Bites that if I ever voluntarily take on that much work again, he’s to smack me upside the head. The paychecks will be *very* nice, but it came at a very high price.
Now, however, I have a bit of breathing space- one big deadline on Monday and then I hope (fingers crossed!) the worst of the insanity will have passed.
As for how I’m feeling now: not great, not horrible. I am, however, feeling much more steady about things even if my mood is still kind of meh. Stable I can handle. I feel like I have more than a snowball’s chance in hell of being able to cope with what might come my way.
On that note, I’m letting you know that I will be returning to blogging on a regular basis as my workload lets up a bit.
Thanks everyone! I missed you!